This morning in the shower I was thinking about my life and relationships, and for the first time, or finally, I realized that I’m nowhere near where I want to be when I settle down into a long term relationship. I need to sort out my job, my life, and be happy with where I am before I can even commit to anyone else. This right now is my me time, partly because I simply don’t have the time to invest in a relationship the way I’d want to, and the way a relationship deserves my time and committment.

I need to establish myself and focus on trying to get where I want to go career wise, and then when I have that, I then need to enrich my life in other ways, and only then am I ready for someone to come into my life and I’ll be ready and waiting. Ya know?

It’s actually really relieving to have figured all this out. I know it sounds super obvious, but finally realizing all this makes it easier to focus on doing what I need to do with my life, and lets me have fun at the same time (eg. my rocker bad boy) without worrying about anything.

I’ll still date, or whatever, if the situation arises, but my real focus is going to be on me. Yay! haha