I can’t stop thinking about it, so I might as well blog about it, right?

Anyway, I haven’t heard from Colin since I got an email from him Friday morning, my time. The only reason this is noteworthy is because we normally manage to either email or catch each other online pretty much every day, sometimes once every two days, depending on our schedules. Usually it’s tougher on the weekends since he’s not sitting in front of his computer all day, so I guess the long weekend is typical?

I tried to NOT email him since I replied to his email on Friday, but then last night I got a bit drunk and emailed him (drunk emailing is almost as bad as drunk dialing…and it’s only almost b/c hopefully the alcohol prevents you from typing coherently), so this morning I just sent off an “ummm please ignore my email from last night…hope you’re well” email, and still nothing.

I hate myself. This is why I won’t do long distance – I end up feeling like a loser, although the last time I did long distance, the guy was super good at keeping in touch and we were practically attached to the phone/computer. But then again that was back when we were students and didn’t have to work.

Plus, then I start going over things in my head like “maybe I just imagined everything and I’m just going crazy, and none of it’s ever happened” which is, I must admit, a tad dramatic, but then I get frustrated and try to put it out of my mind but I still can’t help myself.

GRR! It’s like I’m already in a long distance relationship, and I hate it. I need to get a job, not only for the money but so I can keep myself occupied.

Sigh. I’m totally annoying myself.